It is a gift whether you feel like it is or not. Just want to get better I am 50. And a mom that never gave me attention. The fact people far less competent got theirs around me, cause they had different circumstances and better supervising crushes me. Just before I graduated my wife got laid off. I am afraid I am going to teach him to fear the world. From coworkers and friends and celebrities.
Because maybe their life is not as bleak as mine? We missed a mortgage pmt last month and are trying to get our mortgage refinanced from 15 yr to 30 yr. Because intractable financial problems are, like intractable health problems, are real. You may have to simplify, but life can still be good. Besides, what if one day one of your children wants to commit suicide? It was just about half a year that I struggled with it. She talked about suicide frequently and really thought it would be the best option for her, but felt guilty for what it would do for her grandchildren, so she hung in there. The reason I strongly believe in bankruptcy for you is that any monthly payment plan like debt settlement or credit counseling is not going to give you the emotional relief that you need, right now. I lost a lot of people when I had the courage to stand up for myself.
What can you do now, right now, to help yourself or to let someone help you? I guess I am also a late bloomer. Anonymous, You are not the first person to state that I clearly have no experience having been suicidal, and no doubt you will not be the last. Why did you only finish high school? I find myself cursing God for letting this happen. The good that will come from my premature departure will enable Mom to be cared for and a substantial bequest for riparian land conservation. People might do bad things, and they might feel worthless, but fundamentally nobody is entirely bad. Zondria, We care and your life matters.
This is like packing when you have a month of vacation left. A nice and independent guy. Be strong whatever you do. You already said it, you are of value. He is a classic narcissist, he fits the profile to a T and he also has a hair trigger temper which has resulted in me being diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder that I have to control with daily medication. Why is your ex girlfriend or ex wife not helping you with your autistic son? No one wants to deal with the Monster they created. I can understand not wanting to ruin your credit, but to hell with the banks.
So, one day, I drove myself to the cliffs in Malibu. I cry like i am now every time i try to vent. Why is the one person in your family least capable of caring for your father the one who is expected to care for him? If life is such a struggle…. The Ocean's Eleven star thought about ending it all as he was racked with pain from a spinal injury he suffered while filming Syriana in 2005. The anxiety and depression that never leave me and have become physically painful. You would be the most understanding, the person who knew the most about what they are going through, and you be a person they trust.
Suffering from low self esteem, chronic anxiety disorder, suffocating long term debt and the realization that at the age of 52 I am lucky to even have a job I am a recruiter so I have first hand knowledge of this fact has prevented me from seeing the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel because sometimes there is no light just crushing darkness. But now they just make me curious. She merely reminded me she did the best she could. The only other people in my life are family members who all have terrific lives, full and satisfying lives, surrounded by family, friends, spouses, children. What would you tell them? Deep depression and problem debt go hand in hand. If there's no improvement, then I don't want to live a day beyond 40, but that's 10 years from now so who knows what will change. If you are near suicide, you want to change the subject, or from what you were planning to do.
Got declined from the military for defiancy. There are good days as well. I have been in a trance just thinking about it every day. Rather than bringing your family together, your suicide would more likely tear them apart. Think of Other People — Or Not I would like to ask you to think of people who would suffer from your death. I am full of depression, sadness and pain.
Of course, sometimes people accidentally report themselves. This is the responsible thing to do. The idea that we can be happy and pain-free probably creates far more distress than acceptance of the fact that pain and suffering are inevitable, but that life can still be meaningful. I been thinking of suicide many times this year, sometimes a dozen times in one day. Thanks for sharing the link! Maintain a good hygiene and go to places where you might meet the type of woman you are looking for.
I actively fight when bad thoughts surface by recognizing where it comes from and try and say nice things to myself instead. All I ever achieved during my studies was to prove something to others. Dombeck to people submitting questions. My bf of 3 years and I broke up and I gave up on studying and working. To the point where my body hurts all the time for little pay in construction. This is all dependent of course if there is such a place as heaven or hell. Thank you though for taking the time to leave a comment.
I tried to get help, I did the therapy, medication, counselling, Group stuff, etc. If money is an issue, please check out my post I also list on places where you can receive help for free by phone, text, email, or online chat. But I see it all now, and I would like to be able to do things for myself and only for myself from now on. They told us it was terminal and at best, if she responded to chemo, that she might get 6 more months, maybe even up to a year. Like if person A and person B hypothetically would live in a same exact environment hypothetically being key because well, that's impossible but A presents the genes making them susceptible to depression and B doesn't, what would happen.